ever_changing_girl

WWhat if i were to be dullisional not able to control it.

Control things, obsess, know everything, judge before, feel judged, feel not calm, worried, stresed.

That is the answer.

Trying be person whatever you want liked not fake, then death.

Too much stress

To Stacey's family no one can imagine what if feels like for you after the unexpected happen to you. It is unfortunate that she was at the wrong place at the wrong time. My heart goes out to you and even though I was not in the building, I attented Dawson- a great school it is true.

It is probable that nothing like this will ever happen again but that wont help at all. Dawson will never be the same again.

I cannot beleive happened in our city. In is not a tragedy it is a breakthrough a huge wake up call in our community one which I only hope those who can help do.

We wish to find one answer and something to blame; but we cannot. Everything did amount it to. There are many pieces to put together I strongly belive those who realise this are the ones who can prevent any tragedy or any unfortunate sad moments in the futur in general.

Vampire freaks webmsater is accountable and deniying he does is wrong. I saw on the front page he says we dont condone it. I feel he is making bad choices but compleetely avoiding the media only makes him look worse. He feels terrible of course because he is only human. He does not know how to handle it but someone should explaon this to him.

Sites such as this exist as an outlet for people not just who seem to be drawn to vampires, but to dark things- yes because they are sad, angry and alone - to such a degree tha must let it out. In a good way they come together. But common- they call themselves freaks. They feel different- they always have felt it- and truelly they are not happy they are not proud.
These sites are outlets but seriosuly dont anyone say they exist and the webmaster should control who is holding a gun and who is not. This is one of the reasons they go their- they are so angry to exist in a cult like- seek power in this way.

I was flabergasted at cardomain.com a premiew car showoff site to show in a car door pocket specifically with a gun sticking out. Upon emailing them the stated well there is no rules...blah blah blah. Imagine if someone from there had done it- does it sound like the say they put a part in glorifying violence? I should have taken it a step further and posted and some types of websites but I gues I figured no one wuld care, and car domain lessened the care demonstrated in their words when they realised I was not that serious. Selifish

Again, there is no black and white what is too far and what is acceptable. Unfortuenelty so, it is all indivudal- the attention and care will and should vary.

There are millions of sites out there body piercing, bsfm, blood gore, look at dead cropes, mutilation out there. These people may be different and I beelive they are crying out for help. yes, all these sites should not be shut down to an extreme every home adress should be tracked down and followed in the most serious of ways.

Freedom of expression. something which should be cherished in this country but we take it for granted. The media- the parents of children today. The interet has taken it to a whol enow level. More police etc should have been out there before.

This 25 year old man distubed to the point people say he took it to another level he killed. Yes, no choice or perhaps couldnt take responsable for actions had he gone to court - whatever the case.

Dont go after his parents. You just dont know. No one know he had guns ever understand admitidely so want to beleive it is possible their son has it bad. They were ignorant? Yes. That is normal- no one ever expects that. He was out of control from his parentns and people obviously. At that point.

In high school it was getting worse. The loners are most likely not happy they are misunderstoof, lost, want just to be accetped, talked to not bullied. He was bullied- this didnt help.

Yes, video games make it worse.

Guns in canda- no we dont really need them

We want ansers- NOW. There are none. We need to realisze yes this is very very bad. Yes, it could happen again. Take this seriously.

It is amazing how community's come together in times of need. 911, columbine. Ill just come out and say it -is as 911 because he was a terrorist against people making an irrational statement. This was a selfish selfish act.

Yet he cried out for help- deep down he knew he was wrong.
Thats the difference between the war and this - is has come to the point there arent listening there resorting as to murder they feel it is justified so we are protecting our country.

Care for you fellow man, just because. Never thing you have all the answers. Don't dimiss things. Everyone is to blame- everyone.
And...If you know something is wrong- do something about it I care. I want to help. Lets talk Montreal.

An anonymous 23 year old former Dawson Student.

Mrs. Mistress was talking about Stef and people who cut: she put it so poignantly and way with words I dont want to forget. I wrote down what i could here it goes.

Sacred/ lost/ angry: not handle the emotions.
> let it out to cut: an outlet for pain

This (bsdm) setup is safe, and healthy..

(Steph) Likes the warmth ,the feel when rub on skin after puts it (fire) out.

When light on. Like to be a little scared.

Way with words is something I repsect so much i never had.

I refuse to give up without a fight. I had a hard life.

"You shouldn't compare yourself to others they are more screwed up than you think."

"The people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon and all the less important ones never go away."

We crush the caterpillars then complain there are no butterflies
I'm not a tease, Im just a reminder of what you can't have

Madness takes its toll. Please have exact change


"Dont underestimate the power of stupid people in large numbers"

A good friend will bail you out of jail, but a best friend will be in the next cell saying "that was fucking awesome


"When you were born, you cried and the world rejoiced. Live your life so that when you die, the world cries and you rejoice"

Dreams come a size to big so that we can grow into them." Josie Bisset

Nobody cares how much you know, until they know how much you care.
“I think it’s important to represent who you are
because it gives other people strength.”
- Missy “The Missile” Giove -

"Sal, we gotta go and never stop going till we get there."
"Where we going, man?"
"I don't know but we gotta GO."
- Cassady and Kerouac from On The Road -
i’m not afraid of being inadequate...my deepest fear is that i am powerful beyond measure…


Deep doubts, deep wisdom; small doubts, little wisdom.
Dig the well before you are thirsty.
Give a man a fish and you feed him for a day. Teach a man to fish and you feed him for a lifetime.
He who asks is a fool for five minutes, but he who does not ask remains a fool forever.

Be not afraid of growing slowly, be afraid only of standing still.
A book tightly shut is but a block of paper


He who is drowned is not troubled by the rain.



He who strikes the first blow admits he's lost the argument.

If heaven made him, earth can find some use for him.
If you are patient in one moment of anger, you will escape a hundred days of sorrow


If you bow at all, bow low.

If you don't want anyone to know, don't do it.

Keep your broken arm inside your sleeve.

Not until just before dawn do people sleep best; not until people get old do they become wise.
Raise your sail one foot and you get ten feet of wind.

Teachers open the door. You enter by yourself

A fool judges people by the presents they give him.

many people think they are thinking when they are merely rearranging their prejudices. -William James

He who would leap high must take a long run.danish
Whenever you find yourself on the side of the majority, it's time to pause and reflect. -Mark Twain

The palest ink is better than the best memory.
To know the road ahead, ask those coming back.


The labels we use to define us may become the labels that confine us." ~ Ethereal 2005

"Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever." - Ghandi

the difference between a flower and a weed is a judgement...
(Anonymous or Asesh Datta, no-one really knows)

i'd rather die on my feet than live on my knees..."

Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet. Only through experience of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, vision cleared, ambition inspired, and success achieved. - helen keller

Integrity is who you are when no one is watching

People are like trees.
The scarred, twisted ones that have been hit by lightning fascinate us.
The straight, flawless ones end up as floor decking." -P.S. Wall


"Obstacles are those things you see when you take your eyes off the goal." - Hannah More
If you will think about what you ought to do for other people, your character will take care of itself. Woodrow Wilson

Time you enjoy wasting, was not wasted. ~John Lennon
Whatever you are be a good one. ~Abraham Lincoln

It's better to fight for something than against something. ~Author Unknown
There is often less danger in the things we fear than in the things we desire. ~John C. Collins
"If wrinkles must be written upon our brow, let them not be written upon the heart; the spirit should not grow old."
~ James A. Garfield ~

"The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort and convenience, but where he stands in times of challenge and controversy."
~ Martin Luther King, Jr. ~


Don't walk in front of me because I may not follow.
Don't walk behind me because I may not lead.
Just walk beside me and be my friend."
~ Albert Camus
"The best kind of friend is the one you could sit on a porch swing with, never saying a word, and then walk away feeling like that was the best conversation you've ever had."
~ Unknown ~
courage
Confronting the dragons
Overcoming the obstacles
Understanding the risks
Really living
Always believing
Going the distance
Expecting the Best

Most people are about as happy as they make up their minds to be.
Abraham Lincoln


Anyone who lives within their means suffers from a lack of imagination.

Always forgive your enemies; nothing annoys them so much.

David Letterman

He who would leap high must take a long run.
Danish Proverb



ps: check oprah s reccomendations.;)

Guides to live by....